My Archives: June 2004
Tuesday, June 29, 2004
last night.. i could NOT sleep at all. It was like allllll my insecurites and doubts just came to me all at once. I was all what the hell is this. I kept moving around and all. Oh man. I'm not really insecure about things. Well, i can be insecure but man.. last night. o_0;;; I needed someone to talk too.. where is my prince? (he!he!He)
What was I insecure about? Uhmm.. welll.. I felt (note: FELT!) like i'm misunderstanding someone in particular (but i know it's all in my head) and i felt like i made someone misunderstand me. First i'll just say that.. it's hard for me to show my true feelings for someone. I just keep it all inside. D'oh! Then i get all fustrated....someone just ask... please... ~_~
Ack gotta go.
Later Days
Posted by Maureen @ 11:32 AM PST [Link][17 boogers picked]
Sunday, June 27, 2004
I haven't written in here in more than a week. My week wasn't so bad though. Lets see, on saturday I went to the mall. I remember that and I tried on these cute BCBG dresses and I wanted them so badly. BCBG is my store. That will be my wardrobe when become an aerospace engineer (ha. ha ha. oO)... cuz well, BCBG isn't cheap. The dresses there are so worth what the price is. I'm telling you. Anyway, that was that. I remembered it was SASI's birthday too.. never really got to tell her either =/
Sunday.. I worked and I remember I was majorly pissed when I got off. I just wanted to explode!!! LeAnn cashed me out late (brandon and I were getting off at 6pm.. he got off earlier than 6pm and i got off way later after 6pm.. DISCRIMINATION i tell you... not.. it doesn't make sense.. LeAnn is filipino! haha okay.. j/k 'bout that.. but i was pretty pissed off though) i bet she was just dilly dalling in the back while it was pass 6 o'clock.. and all these customors wanted refunds and exchanges and I was also running out of money in my register. BUT i went home... vented.. to an awesome friend.. and i was happy again. =D =D
Monday... i skipped japanese... (even though i had a quiz..D'oh).. went to my aunts house (my uncle's birthday) then.. when home and got ready to go off roading and hiking with Rick! That was fun. He got new tires too so it was 'funner' (<--remembers legally blonde 2). We went to Applebees too (thanks) and then we saw The Terminal. Fun fun in the sun!
and.. i don't remember Tuesday or Wednesday and Thursday I remember it was Ricks birthday.. friday i didn't do anything... i was gonna do something with jaimie but i didn't get too *tear tear tear* I so remember i did something tuesday and wednesday though.. but what did I do?!?!? I don't remember...ohh well.
Finally, Saturday! (today.. or rather yesterday). It started off pretty bad. My mom and I had a fight on our 10 minute drive to Texas. Dammit. Okay so there was yelling and arguing and all that stuff no big deal.. but for some reason..we both hurt eachothers feelings... I started to tear a little at work and I wasn't happy. Not at all!!!!!! I volunterred to Yaffa (the box manager for that day) that i'd like to go home because well.. there were too many people in the box. so she said "Okay.. bye".. then i went back.. and i needed to use the phone.. she asked "if you're feeling fine.. what's the problem" then i started to mumble and she noticed something was wrong.. then.. i started to do the unthinkable.. i cried (it was in the back though..). But she let me go home though. I tried to call me dad..(cuz well, calling the enemy wasn't one of my priorities at the time) but noooo he didn't get the calls! So i ended up calling the enemy at the time to pick me up. So we fought again... and went to my aunts house and we went major grocery shopping .. and i didn't get home til like 230... I dunno, but i freshened up.. cuz well it was hot and i felt really gross and went to Ricks house for his birthday. :) I'm glad I went cuz it made my day ^_^ It was nice and it turned out really nice towards the end. so yay. -^__^-
So...now i'm dreading for work tomorrow. I hope i don't get the questions.. 'what happened yesterday' or 'whats wrong' cuz.. well.. meh! I'll thank yaffa though if she's there for letting me off early. =D =D
well that's all... hopefully .. HOPEFULLY i'll have a good day tomorrow (or today??.. i'll make sure my sister brings me to work this time.
later days <333
Posted by Maureen @ 01:01 AM PST [Link][18 boogers picked]
Friday, June 18, 2004
I'm exhausted. I've been really busy with japanese classes and work. Tomorrow I have a day off. Tomorrow I don't have a class. Tomorrow I get to finally sleep in. ^_^ ahhh..
Work. Work has been pretty interesting lately. I'm not kidding. Maybe it's because I worked on very NON-busy days. But the people who I was around were pretty cool. Nice to talk too and funny to listen too. Its amazing what I miss when i'm in Box. ha ha. Those USHERS I tell you. I heard lots of information that I didn't need to hear.. tonight after work. Thanks to *cough*. What the hell. Haha. The only fun thing about being an usher is that you get to talk to everyone. In box, you're trapped. It's a prison. But then, I don't have to clean up throw up. ha ha ~_~
Japanese. i didn't do bad on my test. I should've studied though cuz then I could've gotten an A! But I got a B without studying. That class is pretty interesting. Except sometimes I get distracted. ~_~ and I get sleepy too. I can write and read in Hiragana and Katakana now though. We practice common conversations.. like how to order from a restaurant. What Grade you're in. Where you're from ..etc. It's pretty cool ^^ She's a very good teacher.
Spare Time. I saw Stepford Wives.. which was stupid in my opinion. -_- I don't get how it got such good reviews. Even Roeper gave it a thumbs up. What the hell? I also sat on something gross. And I found that out when I got home.. i'm like eww. *paranoid*. Anyway, I saw Gauthier at Albertsons. Oh man.. off all teachers?? HIM? I met his wife though. She's so tiny. Those two reminds me of the Rundle Homicide case. dun dun dun!!! I also saw Pulp Fiction. heh. =) awesome movie. I saw it a long time ago though. I don't think i really got it since i was like 8 or 7 at the time. I had a good time yesterday though :)
Ponder. When i'm thinking about someone, I wonder if that person is also thinking about me too. Everytime I talk to that person, that one person always seems to make me smile :) Well, a lot of people make me smile BUT that person makes me not only smile but happy for a long time. ^___^
Anyway, I hope I have a good day tomorrow as it is my day off.. my real pure day off and I hope YOU have a good day too.
Later Days.
Posted by Maureen @ 11:26 PM PST [Link][18 boogers picked]
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
I'm sitting at the UNLV library...waiting to be picked up. Boo.. it sucks not being able to drive myself home or to any place for that matter. I'm hungry too, but i'm too lazy to walk to the food place AND i don't want to spend my money when I know my mom will buy me food since she took my marvelous bubble bath that I waited for at the Venetien (She just hopped in there after i wait for 20 minutes while i filled up..that really pissed me off) AND after I ACED my quizzes in Japanese. SO, I guess i'll just wait.
Anyway, so far life is okay. (NOTE: so FAR). I had a little annoyance yesterday because of someone... but i let it out to a lucky person and now i'm fine. =) THANKS =D Tomorrow I work from 12-8. I hope it isn't busy. It usually isn't when it's the weekdays. I also work friday too. I hope it isn't busy either. Usually fridays aren't so bad than the usually weekend rush, but I heard when Day After Tomorrow came out..it was busy like Memorial Day. Almost, I supposed. Memorial Day was awful. HOWEVER, I do get my paycheck today! Not until after 3pm though. I hope it's aleast more than I usually get because I worked 3 days one weekend.. soo it should be atleast 40 bucks more. I worked a little overtime, i think. So *crosses fingers* I've been longing for a new tank top for a long time new =P
*still hungry* Maybe i should go get so food.. but it's too far. There's a coffee place here, but their coffee sucks. As for a new job... I might think about working at a coffee shop. Hello? That's like my current obsession. HOWEVER! You gotta deal with picky people. Can I handle it? Maybe, I think you can do anything when you worked at the movie theatre. You seriously get the stupidest people there. This guy, Ian, who was doing LINE, told me that a customer came up to him and asked "Do I have to stand in that line to get tickets?" ?? hello people?? and then Brandon got a customor who asked "What is that long line for?" ... and then.. you get the usual "how old do you have to be for a child" or "how much is it per ticket" (even though most of that stuff is on the SCREEN) I'm still suprised that I haven't bursted out into bouts of anger from hearing those questions over and over. I'm such a good employee, NOT getting irritated and PATIENT as fucK (when i'm in front of customers that is....i'm the opposite of that in real life, man.) *still hungry* WHERE IS MY MOTHER! I'm Demanding a large satisfying lunch now.. dammit.
Alright, SO! I don't know what else to talk about. Except that i'm happy. Especially when i talk to certain people who do make me happy and NOT irritated or insecure ^_^ Weeeeeee
Later Days
*tummy rumbles*
Posted by Maureen @ 11:45 AM PST [Link][1 Booger picked]
Friday, June 11, 2004
I had such a blast this week ^_^ Thank you to those who I was with to enjoy it. I love ya. I just wrote a really long entry in my 'real' journal. Heh =X
I'M SO HAPPPY! *dances around* Yesterday, I went off roading, hiking and then movies. That was fun.. and the weather was reallly nice too. ^_^ and to YOU, I had a good time =D Thanx a bunch!
Today I went to my japanese class. I was worried that I wasn't gonna do well on the quiz, but i felt I did well! Yay! I felt that way cuz i got done with it right away and I didn't really have to think. I studied through the class when she was reviewing. So i'm happy about that.
I then went to work! Yay! I didn't really want to but I was only working 4 hours cuz I came late (12pm instead of 930am --- not my fault though) and I got off at 4pm so what the hell ya know? I didn't want to call in or else i'll get written up again and that's not good when I got written up twice already. ~_~ Anyway, I had a fun day at work! No, SERIOUSLY! I'm saying that with no sarcasm. Everyone was nice :) I was in a good mood, I was just happy! Then guess what??? I got a PERFECT REGISTER BOX! (when i'm not short nor over ^_^) Ah! yay! After I worked there for 2 months, I finally got a perfect box ^___^ whoo! I was more happy than I already was ....because before then (sunday), I was over so much! I felt terrible afterwards, so getting a perfect box after than incident felt great!
Anyway, life is great ..... Except when I talk to certain people (or maybe a certain person?) it makes me wonder how what attracted me to that person in the first place? Kinda crazy, I say, but when I talk to that person, and I just want to tell that person everything...like how my day was and what I did that day that made me happy, but I feel that person just doesn't care or doesn't think much of it (even though it meant something to me.. and i'm sharing it with that person for a reason). When that person tells me about their day, i'm all excited about it as I usually am, but it's not the same back. It sucks, cuz it makes me all crushed. I thought of that person as one of my good friends, I just don't know anymore.
That's the only tiny thing that is bothering me right now. Other than that LIFE IS FABULOUS. This morning I heard DON HENLY was coming! OOoOh!
Later Days!
Posted by Maureen @ 06:58 PM PST [Link][No Boogers picked]
Wednesday, June 9, 2004
So far, summer has been fun (note: so far). I got 45 minutes of sleep monday morning, went to school at 4am got on the bus and watched a movie. That was dumb (the movie). I sat next to Anthony. Its amazing how we always bicker. Not that we hate eachother, but we just do that normally. So all anthony did was talk and made sarcastic comments about everything. Ya know, I thought I had a quick temper.. nuh uh....that boy man... O_o. Anywhoo, the best ride at six flags was X... wow.. that ride was AWESOME! Scott and I were in the front.. it was soo awesome.. (don't know any word to describe it) I wanted a keychain but noo..silly me, I had to look like I was taking a dump ><. Scott looked nice though, I ruined it! Ah well, I don't want to write a realllly long entry but the trip was soo much fun. I rode on all of them except for Scream and colosis which kind of looked like any normal roller coaster. Deja Vu was really awesome too, I didn't ride this with anyone in my group.. i rode with this guy.. who hung out with vicky. I heard his name was Fabio? I guess so, but he was reallly nice ^_^. Anyway, oh yeah, it was Scott, Lucy, Ms. Yi, Anthony and me. Lucy's BEE incident was really hilarious..scary, but hilarious... she suprised me..but i'll leave it up to your imagination =D It was so much fun ^_^ I'm glad I went. It turns out that I didn't miss much in my first day of summer school anyway. After Six Flags, we went home, I was dead tired. Roneth gave me a ride home... and I slept right away..
I woke up the next morning at 745 because I had class at 920? and I got my books too. I had to pay for it and I spent 100 dollars. Boo Hoo. There goes my Jeep Wrangler. It's getting farther and farther away. I'm willing to work 2 jobs. For some reason, I want to quit the theatres but I don't because of the free movies i'll get. I don'tknow what to do, but I need money and I want that JEEP! I'm NOT settling for anything else, dammit. ANYWAY, I thought I was late for class and so there was this class already in the classroom and I thought it was mine.. then the teacher was all talking about Atoms and Plants and evolution i'm like "???!?!?? OH MY GOSH??? where am I??" then I left, and I found out that thats the class before mine. I feel foolish, but hey, they don't know me so why should I care? Oh well, after that.. we went to the movies!
HARRY POTTER! Finally =D The movie wasn't that bad.. it was the best out of the other two movies though. In fact, the 2nd one was just reallly dumb. I love the RON and Hermione scenes...some of those were just very ackward. hahaha. Like that seen where hermione "saw" (<--heh) buckbeak getting chopped up... and she goes to Ron.. feels up his chest and puts her arms around his neck and wimpers. Then Harry (the third wheel) tries to join in the intimate scene.. My sisters and I just bursted out laughing. Hahaha... that was unexpecting. it was cute though. I wonder what Rupert Grint and Emma Watson thought about that scene. Haha. I love it. I Like ron. And I LOVE Ron and Hermione. They ALWAYS bicker. They were even looking for their "dream home" as what Draco stated. It was true though, they DID look like they were looking for thier dream home. Those two are perfect for each other. They're always alone, none the less. Anyway, I think Sirius Black should've been played by Johnny Depp because well, I think, Johnny Depp would be perfect for it =D. I love Sirius Black, he's awesome :) and Fiery. WHOO! He's my favorite character. #1)Sirius #2)Ron #3) Draco #4)Severus. Actually Draco and Severus are really because of the actors who play them. Tom Felton is *ah* <333 and Alan Rickman plays Severus so awesome and funny :) Lupin is okay too. {{wow, I can't believe this is a whole paragraph on Harry Potta}}.. maybe i'll stop there...
Okay, today is alright. THE WEATHER iS GRRREAT! <3333 Also, ONE MORE THING!!!
Happy 18th Birthday ARMANDO! ~heh, I'm sure armando would like that... he'd be happy if I or anyone just mentioned is name. hehehehe....
Later Days
Posted by Maureen @ 04:31 PM PST [Link][15 boogers picked]
Sunday, June 6, 2004
umm.. work was alright I guess. I want to look for another job though. Sometimes I just don't want to deal with money ever again. The good thing about work is the people you meet at work. If I do leave, I'd miss them, because they are pretty cool.
Anyway, i think i'm going to sleep soon or am I gonna stay awake? I can't decide. Gosh, I have so much to say but I can't say it here. Argh, I don't know what to do. I wish I could talk to someone where I wouldn't feel embarrased or stupid after I told them and I wouldn't have to worry what they think of me later. I'm not one to care what people think of me though, but i don't want to look a way that i'm not. Ya know? I'm kind of in a hole. Hopefully, tomorrow will make me forget about it atleast for a day. Then again, I'm the one who makes my day. If i'm upset, then it won't be good, so I should be happy and enjoy it. I just don't know . =/
I hope tomorrow is fun. Dammit, it better be fun.
Later Days.
Posted by Maureen @ 10:38 PM PST [Link][21 boogers picked]
Saturday, June 5, 2004
RAWR! I'm so damn irritated with this fucking computer. I want to sleep, but I had to finish this. And it's taking forever. Piece of SHIT! Anyway, the layout explanation in on the left and the disclaimer is at the bottom of the left side. Grr... I'm still annoyed.
Umm, oh yes, school is out! Yay..... I hope I get somewhat good grades. I think I know what I am getting. Boo Hoo. I wanted to do better this year - that didn't happen. I know I could do better, I just never apply myself. NEVER. I'm telling you.
I'm extremely tired and I feel gross - i need to wash my face! But I do have to say something before I do that. So far, life is going great, fabulous and fantastic. Yet, little things get to me. Simple little things. I don't care for it, but it happened and that's what bothers me. I wish people were more accepting.. I wish people were more enthusiatic. I wish things could be fair. Ya know? Like I'm one way to someone.. I wish that someone would be the same back. Maybe I'm just expecting too much. But how can you not expect much when that person is supposed to be a 'good' friend, ya know? It's hard to believe I actually........sigh
Anyway, by golly, I have a headache.. and I get to work tomorrow. I get to work "LINE". I'm gonna be standing almost 8 hours telling people whose window is open. Sucky, I tell you!
Magic Mountain Trip Monday! yay =P
Later Days.
Posted by Maureen @ 12:58 AM PST [Link][2 boogers picked]
Wednesday, June 2, 2004
I'm very exhausted. I didn't get much sleep last night. I was supposed to start studying for precalc at 730.. then i sat at the table.. thinking..hm.. "i'll go write in my new journal" (this is a written one... i filled up my other one..) so I did. Then I got kind of tired and I was about to sleep. But Miss Universe was gonna be on and I had to see the philippines. That distracted me through the night. I wanted India to win. Stupid USA.. she was very superficial.. her question was "What is they biggest contribution women gave today..." ( or something like that..) and she goes "children!! Without women... who would do the homemaking and cooking... " UGH! That really pissed me off.. because a lot of women don't ever want to be like that. For all I know, my husband better know how to cook, clean, wash laundry and iron. %&(*$(*# God. I really despised her. She was so lame. She had the stereotypical answers. like "peace" *gags and rollls eyes* I think the question was "With the title of Miss Universe, what do ou expect to do...or change" and India said something about respect for women and another girl said something about how women should support eachother. And USA? Yes, she wanted "Peace" what a loser.. she brought shame for the citizens of the us. UGh. thank god she didn't win. India was reallly pretty though.
ANYWHOO... i slept like at 1130 and woke up at 4am. I was exhausted. I had to study for precalc. I hope I did atleast ALRIGHT on the test. Johnson's final was a bitch. I thought Miss M's was hard. NOPE! OMFG... that test was unbelievable.
On monday, It was the busiest I've ever seen at work. It was a never ending line for 5 straight hours. I don't work friday though! YAY! Now, I don't have to see the never ending line for Harry Potta
Anyway, i'm really tired. I can't wait til school is out!! I hope i get to hang out with people over the summmer. I hope I work over summer dammit. I WANT A JEEP! I'm not settling for anything else.. dammit.
My goals for this summer is listed in my LiveJournal...... {{i actually set goals, but i rarely achieve them.. like last year I was so determined to not procrastinate.. then when school started and I got lotsa homework.. what did I do? yes siree!.. I got lotsa bad grades *sigh*}}
LATER DAYS!
Posted by Maureen @ 01:56 PM PST [Link][21 boogers picked]
