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07/30/2003 Archived Entry: "Need to get away"

My Graduation day is on December 17. I am quite happy, I know that date. After that date, I am out in the free world. I am happy yet sort of scared at the thought of being free of school and studying. Yet, there are a lot of competition out there. My cousin is an advertising executive in Chicago working for the Army and planning out their advertising campaigns. I would LOVE to do that. I want to just go somewhere and do something I am happy with. I don't want to be bogged down in something I hate. Like the job I have right now. I don't want a job. I want a career. I love PR too. I'm fine with standing up in front of people.. I tend to get nervous, but I think that's normal. PR sounds really good. Ahhh... I need to do a resume soon.

I really want to go to London though after graduation. I always wanted to go there ever since I was little. London, Australlia, Scotland, and South Africa. I think if I somehow achieved and go to those places, I would be all set and happy. Oh, China too. I want to run that Great Wall and see the old monuments. Just looking at old historic stuff is so wonderful. Being American though, I can tell you first hand that you stick out wherever you go. I hate it sometimes because they look at you weird. In Japan, I'll never forget it. They are all so neat and pretty and polite and yet there I was in jeans and a sweatshirt looking horrid because I've been riding in too many planes to even care what I look like. The Philippines was like that too. I felt awkward. And I felt fat for some reason. Everyone there is so tiny. Now, I'm not fat, nor am I that skinny, but I just felt fat. Ahhh... That is my life. I don't really know why my rambling went to that topic, but to go to London after graduation... I really want to do that. That is my goal. I'll go alone if I have to. Anyone want to come with me?

So anyway... I'm almost done with Harry Potter #5. I like it actually. I think it's my second favorite after the PoA. That book will forever be my favorite. But #5 is strange. Harry's character totally changed. He's yelling more, he's angrier, thinking more selfish thoughts. It's more grown up. But then again he is 15 now. I didn't like the way Rowling portrayed Cho Chang though. I don't really like the way she portrays her woman characters. None of them have this "Hero" quality to them like Sirius Black has or maybe even Lupin. I mean, can you really see anyone saying that McGonagall is their hero? No... However, I think Tonks is pretty cool. It's sort of getting sad now too. Not sad like "Crying" sad... but sad... in a sort of way that I can't really describe... Like I've been reading 5 of these books now and this seems to just... take something out of you. Hmmm...