My Archives: August 2003
Saturday, August 23, 2003
I am So FUCKING sick of this stupid idiotic headed girl that I reviewed. God damn I hate it when people completely turn my words around and think I'M THE ONE that is IMMATURE. Give me a fucking break. I can't believe she had to nerve to say I PUBLICLY insulted her in my blog. MY BLOG? Which is only visited by like 5 people from my domain? Give me a break. It's just irritates me to death. It's a wonder why I even BOTHER to review. I'm like one of the only people reviewing these days and no one appreciates it because they are so hard headed, why do these people even BOTHER to get reviewed in the first place? Yes, I am the immature one for sure.
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Wednesday, August 20, 2003
Ok... here is my hell... well it doesn't really look like this. George Bush isn't that evil but yeah... I don't even know why goths is on there. Geez. I was just pressing buttons. I should have made my own levels of hell but I was lazy....
My OWN LEVELS OF HELL would include:
Fakes, MTV, Plagerists, Racists, Posers, Hipocrites, Las Vegas, My computer, and Materialism [more]
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Monday, August 18, 2003
I haven't written in awhile. I've been busy with summer school projects. But at least I am done with everything and on the 25th, regular school starts. I sort of want it to start but I don't at the same time. I know I'm going to be exhuasted with 5 classes plus a job but what can I do? It's going to be real stressful for me I know it will. Plus I'm probably going to spend all my money on books. Books are so damn expensive. And when you sell it back they only give you 50% back. What is that about? They really want to get money out of you. Not only that, I still haven't paid my parking tickets. Geez. That's awful. I keep forgetting to pay them.
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Friday, August 8, 2003
I've been busy again. I work 5 days this week including working by the pool again. I mean, it's cool in a way considering you can eat, drink, wear shorts, and do some cute guy watching but it also sucks because by the end of the day, you smell like the sun and you're tired and it's just very complicated. But it's always me up there. I don't understand it. Am I the only one that they think can stand to be up there because I don't and there are just some stupid people that go there that just piss me off. I swear, I think I can write a book about the adventures of working in a casino. People just don't know what the heck they're doing and just don't know how jerks they are being to you. Ugh... I need to get out of here. I really do. I can't wait til December comes along.
I think I'm sick or there's something wrong with my body for some reason. If I keep this up, I probably won't have babies or something awful like that. What is wrong with me? I need to get checked up. The last time I was really sick, I had to get an ultrasound to see if my kidneys were ok. It was awful. I was sick for almost 3 weeks and all I could eat was chicken soup.
Let's see. I got REM tickets! Although they are lousy seats because I got them too late but it doesn't matter. It is REM after all. I'll bring binoculars if I have to. I finished HP#5 and will write a review about it. It was good but the third one is still the best. I think that will forever be JK's best book forever no matter how many books she writes after HP. I'm starting on "Ring" by Koji Suzuki. The inspiration for all the Ring movies. It's good! Wow! I can't put it down. Though the concept is the same the book is very different from the movie. I also want to see The Eagles in concert. Yes, they are old but their music is awesome. Whenever I listen to it, it makes me want to go on a road trip or something. Especially Hotel California, Take it Easy, Tequila Sunrise, and Deperado... Anyways... but their tickets are expensive. Not only that if I did go, I'll probably be the youngest one there. Eh.
Ok, need to sleep for I have class tomorrow and work all day too. Yay for me.
Posted by Cindy @ 12:41 AM CST [Link] [1 Comment]
Monday, August 4, 2003
Why oh why am I just so irritated lately? I know I shouldn't make a big deal about it yet, here I am talking about it. It doesn't matter anyway. I've just been really pissed off lately that I feel really frustrated. I've said it before that I feel just stuck. I need to do something. I want to do something but I have way too many constraints right now that I feel sick about everything. Life was so much easier when I still lived in Wisconsin. It's ironic though that when I lived there I wished I were somewhere else and now that I am someplace else, I wished I was back there. I really wonder what my life would be like if I still lived there. Would I be doing the same thing? Will my beliefs and habits be different? I know, I changed a little but still kept my "midwestern" ways... as my friend likes to call it.
I don't know. Sometimes I just feel lost. I know everyone feels like that sometimes. I feel very homesick a lot. I'm the kind of person that needs people around and lately I haven't been around anyone and I feel that something is missing. But then when people are around I act cold and indifferent and I wished I was alone and that they move far away from me. I don't know what that means or why I do it. I want so many things but lately nothing's been going my direction. Maybe this is the chaper in my book where boring parts are everywhere, you know? I wonder if someone will ever turn the page so I'll know if the next chapter will finally get to the good part.
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Sunday, August 3, 2003
My whole week sucked like hell. I am completely fed up with everything and everything I know would go wrong just totally went wrong. I totally wished I was just plain invisible so no one can notice me. I wished I just disappeared. What is going on with my life. Everything seems to just be all messed up. I really can't stand myself anymore... More parking tickets, more mistakes, just more everything. I wish it was just different. Sometimes I just want it all to be over. I just can't stand it anymore. God, one more day... to endure from this horrible week. I need something new. It can't just like this anymore. I this goes on, I'll hate myself even more.